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I’ve Got An Issue #28: Valentine’S Day.


Welcome to I’ve Got An Issue…

I’m gonna keep this one short. 500 words or less because who needs to be a crabby old young person complaining about being single for another year. Hooray for me yeah? I don’t see the point of doing that to yall because it would annoy me. I almost wrote an article like that today.

ANYWAYS!

I hope that you all had a wonderful Valentine’s day with your sweetie or someone you love or family or yourself! DO I really mean that? Yeah I really do. I’m very glad that Valentine’s day is over.The only great thing that came out of Valentine’s day weekend was Deadpool! GO SEE IT! We are in the final hour of Valentine’s day! Now, we can go back to being our true selves for the rest of the year!!!

Now I hope you weren’t a bitter, self centered, lonely, sack of sadness like me this year because you don’t have a special somebody in mind plus you feel like you don’t have anything to offer to anyone when it comes to love. Please don’t be me. You deserve love. I do too. Depression catches me sometimes you know? Thankfully, I wasn’t completely emotional this Valentine’s day. Most of the time I get extremely depressed and just sulk. This time around I wasn’t really sad this year, it just was another day. I spent that day watching One Punch Man! The review is coming very soon by the way. Besides that my day was just meh.

I know this has been said at least once, but why do we treat Valentine’s day as the only day of the year we go all out or treat our significant other like they are the greatest thing that has ever happen to us? Don’t yall think that is a little silly to buy a ton of stuff for bae one day out of the year? SERIOUSLY, why do yall put all this pressure on yourselves for this day? WHY SET THE BAR SO HIGH OF HOW YOUR SIGNIFICANT OTHER OUGHT TO BE TREATED FOR JUST ONE DAY? Why do we do that? Is it easy to just have one day of expected gifts instead of being a bit spontaneous in the relationship? I guess so because some people make Valentine’s day seem like it is a life or death situation.

I don’t know about you, but if I was in a relationship, gifts could come at any moment when we are together. I feel if we are together and you are an awesome person AND you make me extremely happy in the process, I’m gonna spoil you with a gift or two.Who am I kidding? I’m going to spoil the crap out of you. 100 percent from me if you give me the same. *Sigh* Love is gonna ruin me I bet hehe.

In closing, I think Valentine’s day is absolutely stupid and the history behind it is disturbing. Go google that!

Till next Issue.

-MCZX

Single.


It’s a real trap.

When Nobody loves you to the moon and back.

When Nobody loves you to pieces

Being single…………

Is one of many life’s unnoticed tiny diseases

Yet it is fun because you don’t owe anybody or belong to anyone! You can do what you want, not saying you sign your life away once you make somebody your bae or become completely dependent when the friendship evolves to relationship, resulting in you just spending time with them all day leaving all your friends astray, Ooh you changed,   but life just can’t be this way! Ok maybe I’m reaching because all relationships don’t go down that path. It just depends on who you start this with…

To be frank, I’m sick of this lonely shit.

Where is my Alice?  I don’t wanna be Quentin!
I wanna fall in love with one person and keep our status hidden never revealing to the audience the trick that got you here because that would make me bad magician

I’m just saying

Where’s the love? I grow weary of being patient, I won’t lie every couple I see erupts a thought in me stating “I’m hating on y’all happy asses”. False savage doing all the mathematics just to come to the conclusion that I’m actually happy for y’all happy asses.

I swear…..

I would love for the solution to be different, but this is what happens when your truly selfless and not selfish towards every single person. Honey this is the worst type of hell. I mean don’t get me wrong my life is swell but when you get bitten by lovebugs, you can become a love fool or a bitter tool adjusting your cardigan.

I mean if you gonna be an ass towards love you might as well be stylish friend.

Man….

I just want someone to look at me like blue bell ice cream or pizza…because we all know pizza is bae and if you don’t like pizza don’t look my way. Look

I’m saying I want love, that quality love, that everlasting we the best, you loyal, smart, grateful, I’ll fight for us if you do the same, we don’t own each other, but I will change your last name, optimistic yet realistic,  there will never be another one, roller coaster of love under any weather, al green let’s stay together, you and me forever, etched in a tree, sidewalk, or heart type of love. I only see these in my dreams. I love me, but this is one con of being single. I put up a hard armor, but deep down I’m glass see through. I just wonder when am I ever gonna meet you? When will this long shot of a fantasy come true? Don’t you know I’ve been dreaming of you since Middle School? By the way F middle school…worst time ever.

This is such a strange situation. I have so many questions, but I know the answer my equation. Time. Timing. Timing. Timing. Much like Location. Location. Location to real estate, that’s the simple answer to everything along with Patience. Patience. Patience.

Deep down as much as I don’t want to say it….love I need you.

Times like this make me hate being single…

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Don’t Love Me


You don’t love me

I shouldn’t have to second guess when you say It.

This entire game is frustrating

I feel you don’t know what your saying.

What you don’t wanna hurt feelings?

People pleaser

You just trying to be nice though? Huh

Lovely teaser

I don’t know what to do with this woe

Is it real

Or is it to keep me thrilled

I think deep down you already know what you want whoa

Game plan been set

Decisions been made

Can say I don’t know

When Im already ln or on something or someone

Definitely someone for sure

Your actions were written in stars

Predetermined like pro wrestling

When I hear I love you, I just keep on guessin

Such a dilemma in which you have the choice of stressing

Truth is me loving you could be a blessing dressed up as a curse to teach me a lesson

I shouldn’t have to question your intentions when you say those three words.

Changes


Did anyone notice

All of the changes

New scenery

Yet in the same places

Take chances 

For not much advancement

Experiences level up

But feelings still the same

Be one with some  

But don’t really be 

Play the game

Never enough 

Never over 

Same old pains

Same old song 

Same old dance

Same old plans

Forget as much as one can

Disappear man

But No one noticed

All of the changes at hand. 

I’ve Got An Issue #27: #WASTEYOURTIME2016


Welcome to I’ve got an issue!

Not to long ago on Twitter there was a trend with the title of #WasteHisTime2016 or #WasteHerTime2016 where men and women would basically post some of the most heinous ways to hurt a person emotionally. Examples were like thisWasteHisTime2016 3 WasteHisTime2016

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And that’s just the cusp of the Waste Her/His Time tweets. I will admit there were two that really cracked me up because you can clearly tell it was all in the name of comedy. One was from Whataburger. I have declared them extremely petty.WHATTAWASTE

The other was something I’m sure actually happens to women, but it would be hilarious if it happened to a dude. It just really cracked me up!Preg

With the exception of those two, I asked myself should I just look at this hashtag for what it is. A trend. It is just a trend that will be here today and gone tomorrow. It is just social media right? Just look at it as fun and games. It is another silly trend where people can steal other people’s jokes and repost them as there own! These people posting couldn’t possibly hold any truth to what they are saying right?

Wrong.

Some of these do reign as truth. I cannot look at that trend like good time between fellow tweeters because there are people out there that really do this. I feel like some of these people are proud of potentially creating a monster, serial killer, stalker, or a broken shell of what someone once was. Do you know what it is like to completely look at someone in a different light because they intentionally used or hurt you? I hope you never have to. I hope no one gets their shine stolen because some sicko things it is just “cute” that you love them or it is just “nice” that you care about them. People like that don’t deserve you or your time. Cut em off immediately because they have nothing for you if they take you being serious about them as some sort of punchline to a joke.

My question to people who actually do some of this stuff is simple. How could you do that to someone? Do you get off on hurting people to the point that person completely changes who they are? Is it fun to have someone emotionally connected to you? Is it fun to just have them in your backpocket? Their heart in your hands? Is it fun to crush that heart and watch them evolve to something better than you or something more devious than you?  I just want to know! I wish these people who find wasting someone’s time for pleasure get the absolute worst for them ten fold. Personally, you don’t deserve love till you realize that being a complete prick towards people isn’t the way to go about life. Who hurt you? Everybody hurts love, but who hurt you for you to get to this point?!

What pisses me off the most is that the same people posting these stupid jokes or actual life experiences are the same ones to complain about how they can’t find a real companion or how everyone is out here playing games!!!!? @SpaitoGaming nails it here!

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*Swap guys with girls and good man with good woman* SWAP WHATEVER FITS FOR YOU.

I wish every single person who does this to people in their lives understand the irony of their complaining. That’s just hilarious to complain about no “good men and women” out here while you are just a dark abyss of a person who really shouldn’t be near people since hurting them emotionally and mentally gets you off you psycho.

You want the perks of romance, loyalty, and chivalry, but you love stupidity? What gets me is yall have the nerve to want to be treated like royalty when you act like villains? Come on…. Works.jpg You don’t get the perks of those is you decide to intentionally hurt people in the process. How dare you complain? The nerve! You deserve to sleep and date a dumpster. You deserve every STD and STI you encounter because we know you aren’t smart enough to use contraception. I hope your car fails on an important job interview. I hope you get cheated on, your side piece leaves you, and you get evicted from your house. I hope you get a hang nail. I hope your friends never pay you back what they owe you. I hope you the person of your dreams turns out to be a nightmare. I hope you never get weekends off. I hope your weaves cause you to be bald. I hope you get food poisoning at your favorite restaurant. I hope you fail your finals. I hope one of your friends cheats with your spouse/partner and go on to live happier lives while you be miserable for a solid 10 years hopping from person to person, station to station, and getting messed over every single time. Seriously, get bent. This is starting to sound like Chance’s verse on “Baby Blue”, but I don’t care. I truly hope you educate yourself on what love truly is because your definition is asinine, childish, and just plain stupid. Get it together. Apologize to those people whose time you wasted. Karma is a stone cold, unforgiving Beeyotch and will get you!

#WasteHisTime2016 and #WasteHerTime2016 is disturbing. It is a great reason to have trust issues with everyone. You just can’t like someone without there being a mound of bull$hit attached to it. We are supposed to be adults, yet some of us play these stupid games with people. You cannot aspire for a dream relationship when you think wasting people’s time is cute. You cannot have things both ways. How does it look to play games with someone who absolutely adores the living $hit out of you? No matter how you spend it you will always look like the bad person here. You pick one or the other. You either stick with what you have or you take a chance or a new experience. No one likes their time wasted. MOST IMPORTANTLY SAY WHAT YOU MEAN AND MEAN WHAT YOU SAY, IF NOT GO AWAY!

Society is freaking weird! It seems like getting messed over is the new norm while actual courting and getting to know someone is rare anomaly. Screw it, you are better of staying single working on your goals until you can find someone who actually gives a damn about you. Someone who actually loves you for you. I know there are good people out in the world. I have a message for you wonderful people, keep being awesome! I’m sure love is gonna catch you. If you are victim of you time getting wasted, don’t waste your time trying to hurt them like they hurt you. It isn’t worth it. Make the decision to either forgive them or forget them and move on with your life. You are all hidden treasures the world needs more of. Don’t let these negative idiots steal your shine! Some of them wish they could be in your shoes! Stay amazing!

Till next issue!!!

-MCZX

State of the Blog UNION 2015!!! UPDATES AND THOUGHTS!


Happy New Year and Hello everyone! It’s Matt. How are you doing today? I hope you are doing well and continuing to fight for a brighter day! I wanted to discuss a few changes I had in mind for my blog going into 2016. I know I this year I wasn’t as consistent as I should have been with I’ve Got An Issue. I should have had one every week, but life happened. New opportunities present themselves, work was heavy, life dropped blessings & lessons, and I realized how short time is even on a day off. Time moves very quickly y’all! So I apologize to anyone who checked my blog every Friday, Saturday, or Sunday for a new I’ve Got An Issue. I am attempt to be more consistent in 2016 on my blog.

I have to give a big shoutout to the 59 people following this blog. I really appreciate it. I thought I wouldn’t get pass ten followers tops on here! Y’all are the real MVPS for that. You guys are one more reason I want to produce more content for y’all next year. Some of it will be for you to read and possibly hear next year. Yes hear! I also want to build a better relationship with all of you. I mean we should work together right?! We should throw feedback to one another too! So I’ll definitely be checking out some of your writings. This isn’t a follow for follow blog. It’s not about the numbers, it’s about your content! I’ll be dropping in on some of your blogs more often in 2016. Who knows one of y’all can end up being my favorite in 2016!


NOW on to the changes that may come in 2016!

MONTHLY REVIEWS

THIS IS THE BIG ONE! Let’s face it I love reviewing! I find this unusual joy of sharing my opinions about whatever I just watched, read, heard or even ate. SO I AM PUTTING IT INTO EXISTENCE THAT 2016 I WILL PRODUCE AT LEAST ONE REVIEW A MONTH OF SOMETHING. This may be hard for me, but I really want to do this. I feel like I am very capable of doing a review a month so why not at least try to do it you know? I am thinking mostly anime and movies since I have a formula for both (I’m still tweaking the movies formula too). This does not mean I will not be reviewing music, video games, books or food either. I did music before with Sam Smith’s album, but I did that out of pure depression and love. I love music too much to not review it too. I NEED TO REVIEW VIDEO GAMES…SIMPLE AS THAT. AS MUCH AS I GAME, I SHOULD BE REVIEWING THAT IS ALL. Books will be weird to review because I’d have to figure out a way to review it without spoiling anything. Food…well that’s the wildcard, I just thought of doing that haha. Conveying how food tastes with my words is going to be fun! So look forward to Monthly Reviews because it is going to happen, I AM GOING TO MAKE IT HAPPEN!!!

Next Anime Review?!

Once I finished FLCL, I was supposed to watch another show, but life caught me…and laziness. SO the next anime review is going to be Golden Boy in January! It was supposed to follow FLCL right after I reviewed it, but I screwed up and did something else. I screwed up! I take the blame for that. Golden Boy is January mark that down! SO many more reviews to come!

I’VE GOT AN ISSUE 

I’VE GOT AN ISSUE IS HERE TO STAY! The series is going to continue! The only tweak I have to deliver is I want to get it on time. All those weeks off, I had Issues with a lot of stuff and I didn’t write about it. Shame on me. I am considering making an email for people to send their issues to so I can post them here just in case I don’t have one this week. Yes you get all the spotlight and credit for that Issue! Just let whatever or whoever have it! I’ll protect your anonymity! I’VE GOT AN ISSUE WILL BE ON TIME AND READY FOR 2016!

POEMS

I know plenty of my followers like my poems. I’ll be honest I haven’t wrote many poems after I posted my last one. I will still post them on here, but I just do not know when. Just be on the look out I guess. You never know when one will pop up!

YOUTUBE

My brother & I have been discussing this since the start of the year. I think once we get everything in order, we will be starting a youtube channel! I will be posting videos from our channel on here if we ever start. YOU GUYS GET TO SEE OR HEAR ME AT LEAST IF WE START THE CHANNEL! I cannot make any promises about this. It is just a possibility!

PODCAST

For a couple years, I wanted to do a podcast and 2016 may make that a reality. My cousin and I are thinking of starting up a podcast next year dealing with love, relationships, entertainment, nonsense, and whatever we want to talk about really. We are still deciding on a name, but I want that to drop once I get my microphones stuff! I’ll be posting the links to those podcast episodes here too! It will work just like I posted my last music project here. Another possibility!

SHORT STORIES

I may or may not surprise you in 2016! My short stories may or may not make an appearance next year. That is all.

LISTS

There were no lists this year…that sucks. THERE WILL BE A COUPLE OF LISTS IN 2016! The first list will be in January. It will be my top ten favorite albums of 2015. I need time to listen to all ten again to decide the order and which I loved the most. So It will probably drop in the second or third week of January. It is gonna happen! Poor barren category has nothing in it 😦

Pro Wrestling

The final deal. We’ll I’ve been thinking of starting another blog up just for my pro wrestling thoughts! I could keep them here, but I noticed a lot of people don’t really read those. SO a blog dedicated to pro wrestling would be more sufficient. I may run that blog with a couple of friends or we may just make a podcast or something. I have no idea! It is just an idea for now! Don’t worry if you like my thoughts on pro wrestling, they will still be here…for now whenever I decide to write about them.


That’s all folks! I just wanted to touch base and let y’all know what was coming in 2016! Bless you all! Bless up! I hope everyone enjoys their day and have a wonderful 2016!!! HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!

-MATT C/ZX

 

I’ve Got An Issue #25: Bad Parents


Welcome to I’ve Got An Issue!

Remember the very first installment of this series? If you don’t, I spoke about how one parent shaved their step-son’s head because of bad grades and smoking weed while she was doing way more dirt than he was. Unlike math, both negatives did not equal a positive. I pointed out how hypocritical it was for that person to teach her step son the right thing to do while secretly that she was dong the wrong thing. Maybe I was wrong for making that my very first entry, but I was making a point back then. I do not know her and she may or may not be a bad person. It was wrong for me to judge her. I’ll admit that, but her actions was what I judged overall and they were wrong. So I apologize if any hurt came from it. One thing I do not like is bad parenting, but something I hate more than bad parenting is bad parents. Bad parenting doesn’t necessarily mean bad parents. I may disagree with the methods, but I understand for some cases why parents use some of these destructive methods (shaving of heads, breaking systems, mental abuse, spanking, etc). They do it out of love, however they should be corrected because those methods can have long lasting effects.

Now with that out of the way, I have an issue with bad parents.

What is a bad parent?

My definition of a bad parent is simple: A person who does not want to take responsibility in raising or taking care of their children. Also a person who only brings children into this world, but abandons them. Bad parents can also fall under people who just abuse their kids for their sick psyche or just a horrible person who shouldn’t have had kids in the first place.

The Issue

What I cannot understand is how your kids could not be your all? You and your partner brought a kid into this world or adopted a child now all of a sudden you do not want to take the responsibility of being a parent? I don’t get that. I feel like all of the “me” stuff has to be put on the side for great development for the kids because they become first priority. There are exceptions where the kids aren’t first because the relationship with the partner is toxic and you have to come to an agreement to not go insane. Infidelity does not count as one of these exceptions. All of my comments go to those who feel like they don’t have to take of their kids or teaching them morals or guide them in life. ALL of you who think your poop don’t stink, all of you who think they are going to be fine without you. I hope all of yall meet pike to the face. The minute you brought a life into this world, you signed a contract for 18 years or more to be a superhero to your kids. Why would you want to be a villain when they are gonna rely on you the most? Folks, it is not fair to act like they don’t exist while you are living the bachelorette or bachelor life. I mean what was the point of conceiving them if you weren’t going to do the hard work that comes after that? Was it to go on Maury, Hit The Quan, and make an ass of yourself on national TV? Was it to go on paternity court knowing damn well you got someone pregnant or got pregnant just to be like “HEYYYYYYY I’m ON TV!!!”.  15 or 30 minutes of fame is sickening if you are willing to go through all of that. I fear that is becoming a trend that will not die.

The kids did not ask for this drama, so why put them through it? Once the results get read and the courts have closed the case, you bad parents do something even worst. You play the manipulation game with your kids to make yourself not only feel better, but look like that superhero you signed up to be when they are gonna eventually find out you were the villain the entire time. That stuff seriously will mess up a kid’s mentality guaranteed. All in the name of the trend right? You gotta be trendy now a days even if that means being child raising children. Childish behaviors by adults are the dumbest thing an adult can do. Mature adults don’t involve their kids in their problems. I thought common sense and logic would point that out, but you know just like education that’s lacking in a lot of people.

Here is a side note still relating to those bad parents. I noticed that as I’ve grown older, paternity suits and Maury just are not funny any more. Remember this is where Bad Parents can hit their best Dougie or I told you so. I suppose shows like that are for our entertainment, but those people on those shows are going through a life changing storm which is no laughing matter. Then again it could just be a group of actors trying to make an audience feel in the name of entertainment.  It is worse when you see it happen to people you know and all you can do is watch the storm touch down because you have no power here *King Theoden laugh*.

Bad Parents seriously think about what you are doing because you owe your kids, and you are their superheroes…or villains they will eventually get rid of.

Till next Issue!

-MCZX

I’ve Got An Issue #24: Divorce


Welcome to I’ve Got An Issue.

Today, we tackle the best alternative to being cheated on and taking it like masochist you are, divorce. Divorce is when you used to love someone, but you have to leave them because of a legit reason or because you are a complete piece of garbage who shouldn’t have never gotten married in the first place. You know who you are, you are like the person who can’t keep their eyes on their plate of food. You just looking at everyone else’s food, setting up appointment talking bout you are going to a meeting when you are really meeting up at a hotel to get a taste of the new food. Of course you have food at home, you committed too, but you just have a problem being faithful to the food that loves you so much. I see you ya sly dog you. A couple of years ago I would have said this was a sensitive topic, since I am a child of divorce, but I have matured. Amazing what a year’s time can do. This may be one of the worst Christmas presents for some families tomorrow. I think you are a complete jerk to ruin Christmas with yourself bullcrap. I hope that does not happen to any of you.

With that being said, let’s see a couple reasons why it would be ok to get a divorce.

REASONS TO HAVE A DIVORCE

  • Partner is abusive
    Let’s face it some people suck. These people can deceive you for years till you figure out how awful they actually are. From coming across as a knight in shining armor to a queen who has her own, people are great at faking it. They can hold a stance on not hitting or breaking down their partner, but after they get comfortable they hit either mentally with a hook or with an actual hook. By no means you should stay with someone who will put their hands on you or make you feel less than a person even if their sex game is top notch. You do not stay. Respect yourself at all times. Your partner should follow suit. A person who loves you would never cross those lines. Get that divorce and be safe.
  • Partner is toxic to your family and future.
    Toxic meaning poisonous to the family you are trying to build or your actual family. If your partner isn’t doing anything to benefit their life or simply refuses too once you are married you should absolutely leave. You cannot make a person do something they do not want to do. Your partner doesn’t have to like your family per say, but he or she should respect them since both family are becoming a union. Someone who is constantly fighting with your family is not gonna result in a healthy marriage. Again, your partner does not have to like them as much as you may like them, but respect is something definitely needed. Moments like this require action. If talking sense to them won’t work, divorce maybe a very smart action to escape the black hole your partner is trying to drag you in.
  • Marrying too soon
    Love can cause us to make some stupid decisions. Nothing is wrong with getting married quickly. Sometimes it works for young couples, while others end up regretting marrying someone without really knowing them. Sure things may have been sunshine and roses the first couple of years, but maybe you come to a point where you ask yourself “Is this what I really want”? If the answer is no, you need to sit your partner down and have the talk about divorce. Personally, I think it is key to get to know someone before you make the big decision to propose. If I don’t know you well enough or know deep down I’m not happy, it would be pretty silly to make a fool out of myself proposing on camera of course.  I advise you not to marry a person off of a one night stand or pressure because everyone likes y’all together. Do not get pressured into anything. Your happiness belongs to you and you do not belong to anyone. The same rules apply to dating.
  • IF YOU KNOW YOU ARE GOING TO CHEAT
    Pretty much self explanatory. I don’t know how long you kept your relationship alive with all the cheating on the side, but the audacity of you to propose or accept a proposal knowing you aren’t gonna be faithful. Shame on you. People like you should just stay bachelors and bachelorettes till you have that cheating bug out of your system. You are wasting someone’s time, someone who truly cares about you and wants to make things work out, but you can’t keep it in your pants or your legs closed. More power to you if you get a divorce because someone cheated on you.

REASONS TO NOT HAVE A DIVORCE

  • FOR A NEW LAY
    Seriously, this is one of the most common reasons people get a divorce. Instead of sitting down with their partner, talking about their transgressions, and looking for options to fix those transgressions, they decide to cheat and prowl for new vagina or penis. OF course, the secret will go underneath the radar for a couple of years until the person doing the cheating is sure they are going to get a divorce just to get married to the person they cheated with. Logically it makes no sense to get married, divorce, and get married again to someone you may divorce for another person. The process makes no sense, but it is bound to repeat. If your whole reason to get a divorce is to marry someone else, then you are not only idiotic and spineless, but you shouldn’t have been married in the first place. I feel like once two people get married they become a team and they should talk about their problems and try to work them out. As adults, we should at least do that. IF two people can’t work it out, then it is reasonable to get a divorce. I find it very unreasonable to get a divorce because you wanted to marry someone else. It is heartbreaking to hear stories and even see some of them play out in life.
  • Selfishness
    Compromise is a real aspect of marriage. Everything cannot go your way. If one tiny disagreement causes you to automatically want a divorce, then you should reevaluate why you got married in the first place. You cannot have your cake and eat it too. I know for a fact healthy relationships do not work like that. Grow up and speak to your partner. Quit jumping to extremes.
  • WHAT ABOUT THE CHILDREN?
    Listen, if you have kids, your kids are going to be affected by the sudden divorce. ESPECIALLY IF THEY ARE OLD ENOUGH TO UNDERSTAND WHAT DIVORCE MEANS. Look at me! I think I turned out ok! Anyways, I understand all marriages don’t always work out in the end, yet you should always consider your children. I feel like sometimes it is worth sticking together, working out problems, more deliberating on certain topics, and eventually coming to an agreement to make the marriage work for the children. Who knows a part of that agreement can be getting a divorce once all the kids are taken care of with joint custody. Seriously, you do not want a custody battle or your kids resenting you because you chose happiness over them. Both of those are ugly situations with terrible consequences. Finally, do not try to convince yourself that they are going to be ok because of your decision making…stop that.  Always keep your children in mind if you are considering a divorce.

And there you have it! To recap, you have every right to get a divorce if you are being abused or if the person you married turned out a toxic monster. I mean of course you stay with them if they turn out to be the toxic avenger because they are a superhero….from New Jersey. Sorry I couldn’t resist. You get a divorce if you married too soon and if you know deep down you can’t stay faithful. Definitely think about your children too before you go through with a divorce. No respect for you if you get a divorce for new penis or vagina or just being a selfish loser.

Till the next Issue!!!

-MCZX

I’ve Got An Issue #23: A rant about something or nothing?


Welcome to I’ve Got An Issue.

Hi.

I have something to share. It is a little rant. This rant came out of a dream. A dream of subtle realization that lead to this rant.

Nothing is the same and won’t be the same ever. I wish everyone would cut the bull and understand that. It takes work for things to get fixed. It takes work for things to change properly. It takes effort. And all I can tell you is I barely see any effort which makes me think “hey this isn’t gonna change, we are walking in circles”. I’m tired overall, but I’m tired of walking in circles. Nothing won’t change. YOU CAN CHANGE it. You have the power to. This is obvious. I’m just saying nothing won’t be the same ever. You’ll never have cake and eat it too unless it is physically cake. This the only time you get to have cake and eat it. I thought you knew that already.  Nothing won’t be the same ever. You have to accept this in order for progress.

ANYWAYS

Friends come, Friends go, relationships start, relationships end, ties get cut, people change for the better or worse, people change, people change, you change, you care, you don’t care. What is important is how you take all of this in. Everything is going to change while it may feel like nothing. Your reaction is important. You either react like a little child who won’t let anything go and will do anything to get that feeling, relationship, friendship, job, money, etc back. You’ll change for the wrong reasons because you are chasing a ghost of your past. Did I mention things are gonna change? You know you have power right?  Option two requires you to let it all go, burn all those memories away,  say goodbye to this burning field of memories as much as it may hurt, hold on to one memento from it for nostalgia purposes, lock their ashes in a box, walk away, cry a little bit, cry a lot, hurt a lot, reminder yourself not to chase ghosts, flip em all off, be bitter, be upset, be pissed off, let it out, let it go, pray if it helps, forgive if you can, and live magnificently. You have the right to feel all of these emotions at once so don’t let anyone tell you how you should feel towards something. I cannot express how much I don’t like someone telling me they have been through the exact same thing. NO you haven’t. They aren’t in this at that moment. Sure the past offered that experience to a person, however, it won’t equal to however you are feeling. It doesn’t count once you have let all of the pain go to me anyways. So when they say they understand, make that into white noise. Some are legit trying to help so be aware of that and try to tell them as nicely as possible that they aren’t gonna get it. Listen to what they have to say though.

No one owes you a damn thing in this world despite the smiles and promises. You have to work at everything to get a little bit of something. Don’t be fool and fall for it. Be so self aware it is scary. Go get what you want. Be reasonable, don’t be a giant fool. Don’t put all your eggs in one basket, I learned that the hard way (That dream also made me realize why men and women talk to multiple partners at once. You gotta have options before you lock one down right? Another issue for another time). I have no idea where I’m going with this.  I know one aspect if any I would like you to take away something from this. Understand that nothing is going to be the same, everything changes, people & life are gonna let you down sometimes, you understand yourself better than people do, YOU have the power in most situations life throws at you, sometimes you won’t have any power due to everything being out of your hands, your reaction is important, and your past doesn’t own you. You own your past. The only useful objects the past can offer is things to avoid in the future or things to chase in the future. You are a winner, pink starburst, billion dollars,  fallout 4, the essence of love, the best thing since sliced bread, and royalty in your own little world. Don’t be a fool though.  Don’t let the world beat you down even though it may throw haymakers and quick jabs every. single. day. Stay strong. Compete with yourself, not others or the world. Don’t lose yourself in your sorrow or depression (been there done that rose from it). Go follow your dreams. Go find your wings. Go on an adventure. Go taking life one day at a time. Go at your pace.

Go Team You.

If no one is rooting for you, I’m rooting for you and I don’t even know you that well.

Till next time

-MCZX

I’ve Got An Issue #21: The Conversation Between Reason & Depression


Welcome to I’ve Got An Issue.

Today will be a little different than the usual format. I’m not feeling to good mood wise for some reason and I wanted to share something that’s been brewing in my head for I guess years. I want to share a conversation between reason and depression. I’ve got an issue with it, always have, so I decided why not share. I may follow up in the future with a normal format dedicated to why depression is such a son of a bitch, such an unsung mental illness that gets swept under the rug. This conversation may help people, I may feel better after writing what is going up there. Here it is the conversation between reason and depression.


 

(Fade in. Matt is sitting on the couch typing up the next issue while it rains heavy outside. We go inside Matt’s head to see depression and reason bickering)

Depression: You are doing this again?

Reason: He has every right to write about this if he pleases.

D: You know no one reads this right? You aren’t even that great of a writer.
R: Really bruh?
D: Yeah. I mean if he was wouldn’t this blog be blowing up? Plus you are kind of a couple years too late on this whole blog thing. You should have started in high school. You were always writing then.
R: Popularity comes with time and then again it can always go viral one day. You have no idea what the future holds. As for starting in high school, he was in a different mind state back then. Everything works out the way it is supposed to.
D: Really? Tell that to life. I suppose innocent people dying is for no reason is the way it was suppose to work out right?
R: Idiot those are two different things. I’m saying in his case the timing wasn’t right. Your dumb ass example doesn’t apply to what I’m talking about. No one knows the means or when a life can end.
D: Sure. I know I can make a life end. I know I can end all this pain for you Matt if you just listen to me. I can make all the pain go away if you just listen. All the pain this world has brought to you from family problems, divorce, rejections, bullying, not feeling good enough, feeling like the higher power is dealing you a bad hand, feeling like you’ll never amount to anything, you name it I can fix it. You know the saying you die a hero or live long enough to become the villain. Just—
R: You aren’t ending this one despite your multiple goading. Cut it out. You are sick. Matt listen to me, you have a awesome life. You could be way worse my friend. It isn’t that bad. All good things come with time. Whether you believe or not sometimes, understand the higher power dealt you a very decent hand. Now for not feeling good enough, you need to understand that you have the power to change anything that is plaguing you. Whether that is people, family, friends, losing weight, gaining more confidence, you name it you can fix it. You can even get rid of depression
D: He can’t get rid of me. I’m his long term girlfriend/wife. We got married in middle school and he ain’t even know it. *Milly rocks and dances*
R: Yes he can. He can get rid of you. Depression please, everyone knows I’m the one he’ll never forget. As smart as he is, you already know I’m the one. We perpetual and you on some ephemeral forcing mistress shit.
D: I can get him to do it.
R: You can’t get him to do anything not as long as I’m around. He has free will, he isn’t ruled by you. All you can do is make him sad.
D: If it was just me and his id I can make it happen.
R: Not as long as his ego and superego are in check. You have no power here. Matt this depression is stupid bih. Cut that bish off.
D: Oh really? I have influence! I am the sole reason all of this exists talking bout I have no power here.
R: Bullshit. Don’t listen to D. Salty ass just mad at the world and wants everyone to feel it.
D: Believe me, Matt I’m the reason this exists. You didn’t create this to just write…you created this to get away from me. Every time something bad happens, I make you pick up that pen.
R: This isn’t true Matt, you did this because you always wanted to do it. It was a dream of yours to write, whether it is profit or just for fun. You love writing you don’t do it to run away from depression. You pick up a pen because you are creative. Don’t listen to this loser.
D: Don’t listen to reason, you know deep down I am the true reason for all of this. I am the reason you wrote those stories. Creative my ass. I am your fuel, you need me and all those bad things to happen so you can become a greater “creative” if you want to use that label. Think about it. Getting rejected by that girl you like so much made you do so much in response to it. How is that friendzone working out for you buddy? I mean you should be the mayor of it because you are always there. Think about it. Matt that’s why no one wants you because you don’t have any drive or initiative to take action. YOU LET THINGS PASS BY. Getting bullied made you embrace me more than anyone else. I made you create to cope. I made you become who you are. I made you see how people truly are. No one cares about you, but me. It is just me and you at the end of the day. No one will understand us. And your parents divorce haha—
R: YOU SHUT THE HELL UP. Matt please don’t believe anything D says. D absolute bullocks. This is the same spiel D uses on everyone. D takes all of the bad and uses it against the person that D’s effecting. D doesn’t care about you, D doesn’t understand you. D is simply a user who wants to take everything from you including your life if D got the chance. Depression is the greatest loser on the planet. You don’t want to become the embodiment of what you hate. Matt is a creative soul. He makes things to feel better. YOU don’t make him make the things, he chooses to! Listen, his parents divorce, the bullying throughout schooling, the rejection from the girl he loves, all made him stronger. Those things made you smarter too Matt. Those moments inspired things you have created or will create one day. You made the decision to create things and you felt much better instead of harboring those feelings. Creating is a healthy way to self repair. Understand, Matt knows Matt better than anyone ever could right now. One day there will be a person who knows you better than you, heck maybe there is someone who already does. Don’t ever feel like you are trapped with just Depression because Reason is always right here. Think and don’t listen to this bully.
D:………
R: That’s what I thought D. You had your little moment today with making Matt feel sad, but you can take a seat. Go away.
D: I’ll see you soon Matt.
R: AND I’ll be right here waiting! GET THE HELL OUT OF HERE! MATT let’s enjoy this rainy day, you love days like this! Plus Hell In A Cell is tonight :)……..

(Reason continues talking, Matt smirks and takes a deep breath)

Matt: Everything is going to be fine. One day at time. Now where’s the food?

(Fade out)


I hope this helped anyone going through depression. Please listen to reason, don’t let depression bully you! Talk to someone, do something creative, have fun, don’t let depression get the last laugh! ALSO if someone says they are depressed, please listen to them and talk to them. Do not say “get over it”. Quite frankly you sound like a prick if you do say that to someone with depression. Keep fighting!

Till next time!

-MCZX